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"In every walk with nature one receives far more than he seeks."
- John Muir
This entry was supposed to be about the psychological aspects of not being able to run any more but I'm just not ready to write that one yet. Most of my best thoughts (and wry one-liners!) about this topic are forever lost on the trails over the last two years, not written down as they surfaced and long gone from conscious memory by the time I returned to pen and paper -- or a keyboard -- at the end of those runs and hikes.

I haven't been able to recover enough of those thoughts this week to put them into the kind of essay I want to write; they obviously aren't ready to be shared yet with the world. As they continue to percolate I'll write about a related topic that's been on my mind for a couple of months while I've been dealing with my disappointment about not being able to run any more and revising my athletic goals.


I am one of those people who crave to be outdoors part of every day, even when the weather is crappy.

I'm not clinically claustrophobic but I do get "cabin fever" fairly easily. I think that's typical of runners, especially trail ultra runners. We simply need to be outdoors as much as possible. Because I spend a lot of time in front of a computer or doing other close work when I'm indoors (reading, scrapbooking, quilting, other crafts), it does my eyes and brain good to refocus at a distance outside, deeply breathe in some fresh air, exercise my body until I'm sweating, and get a new perspective on things -- literally.

I grew up on an 80-acre farm in southern Ohio. About half of it was too hilly to be of much productive use for growing crops or raising animals but it was nirvana for a tomboy like me. Some of my fondest memories of childhood are walking and running around that place! We had wooded hills, a spring, and a large creek, which in later years after we'd been long gone was dammed into a Corps of Engineers lake:

Water now covers what used to be our fields and a large creek.

Trees, hills, water, wildlife, sunshine . . . all the necessities! They beckoned to my soul from the very beginning of my life and they continue to beckon me out the door today.

There is a calm when I'm on a trail in familiar woods or meadows -- anywhere in this great land of ours, not just my local running venues. Mountains, prairie, seashore, desert . . . it doesn't matter if I'm walking leisurely on a recovery day or running so hard that I can't talk:  regardless of the effort to my heart and lungs, when I'm out in nature my mind calms down, thoughts flow freely, and there is nothing I'd rather be doing than enjoying that experience at that very moment.

New trails and roads elicit a similar response. Even though there is more anticipation and excitement and maybe even some fear when I'm exploring a new place, it's not usually a stressful kind of excitement -- except for a few days on the AT Adventure Run, like getting through Mahoosuc Notch in Maine:

Over, under, or around -- your choice how to negotiate the car-sized boulders in Mahoosuc Notch,
the toughest mile on the entire Appalachian Trail   (Day 127 of our 2005 AT Adventure Run)

I'd describe exploring new places as the joy of discovery, which also calms my body and spirit. Obviously I'm not the very first person to find the place -- just about every square inch of the continental USA has already been explored, except maybe part of the Barkley course in Tennessee (ultra running joke!) -- but to me there's just nothing quite like seeing and feeling a place for the first time, especially on foot.

It brings a smile to my face and peace to my very core. Any concerns about yesterday or tomorrow vanish as I fully experience the present.


This is one of the main things I want to preserve in my life even as I lose my physical ability to run or walk as far as I'd like:  I want to be able to experience the therapeutic benefits of being out in nature until the day I die.

Nature heals us as it calms us. It prepares us to better cope with the other aspects of 21st Century life. It keeps us sane in an insane world.

Two mellow fellows -- Jim and Cody -- enjoy a fine fall day in the woods.  (10-09)

I need to feel the sun on my face, the breeze in my hair. I need to hear the splash of water in creeks, the chorus of frogs in a pond, the song of birds in the treetops, the crack of branches as deer dart through the trees. I need to smell what the forest smells like after it rains. I need to see the new growth of spring, the lush greenery of summer, the colorful foliage of autumn, the fresh snow of winter.

The first time I wrote that paragraph, I said "want" instead of "need." I changed it later when I realized I don't just want those things, I need them!

And I don't find them anywhere but outdoors, completely removed from the noise and bustle of civilization. The good news is that you really don't have to literally go that far into the woods to find that kind of peace and quiet, either.

Explore Park is just off the busy Blue Ridge Pkwy. and near urban Roanoke, VA
but it's a different world only a few yards into the forest.

This fall I'm in the process of learning to appreciate shorter hikes in the forests and mountains near Roanoke. Even an hour of brisk walking in the woods on a sunny day puts me in a mellow mood and gets those feel-good endorphins flowing! My knee pain disappears along with any urge to push hard -- if I do, I might miss the graceful flight of a bright red leaf to the ground, or a delicate mushroom poking its head through the moss. Throwing sticks for Cody-the-ultra-retriever to chase as we hike through the woods has taken on a more playful vibe that we both enjoy.

I've decided I can live happily without running as long as I can still walk! The journey is becoming more important than how fast I reach the destination.

I will continue to get outside by foot or on a bike as much as I can as we travel across the country this winter. I think I'll be able to maintain my sanity and fitness as long as I can still get out on trails almost every day -- and occasionally up on ridges with panoramic vistas -- whether it is on foot or a bicycle. I know that some day I may be able to enjoy those places only in/on a motorized vehicle (or a horse -- hey, I could be an endurance rider!).

Explore Park in November: great secluded trails to run or ride

When I can no longer ambulate comfortably, I'll adjust my goals again. Maybe I can learn to be just as happy sitting outside my camper in the middle of the woods as I am when I'm moving under my own power father into those woods or up a nearby mountain.

That's not a bad lifestyle -- it sure beats being cooped up indoors. I just hope it doesn't come down to only that for a lot more years!

My mind and body don't do "sedentary" well.


For six nights in late September and early October I was glued to our TV screen watching Ken Burns' fabulous 12-hour documentary about the national parks on PBS. Did you see it?

I don't watch much TV but this series totally engrossed me. I literally had goose bumps of pride that our country (with great effort by many individuals) has been able to cobble together so many millions of acres of pristine land for everyone to enjoy -- even if they aren't American!

(It's ironic that some "foreigners" have seen more of this public land than many of our own citizens.)

If you missed the film, I urge you to catch it on re-runs. The presentation was gorgeous, educational, and fast-paced. It makes you want to go to every beautiful place they featured -- right now. You can also purchase a (rather pricey) DVD, CD of the soundtrack, book, and other items from the series at the PBS website above.

Cody got to check out Tuzigoot National Monument in Arizona with us in January.

I spent a fair amount of time one day at Sam's Club leafing through the large, thick companion book with much of the narrative written by Dayton Duncan and many old and newer photographs of a good portion of our 391 national parks, recreation areas, preserves, historic sites (battlefields, monuments), scenic trails, parkways, rivers, lakes, and seashores.

I don't know if the DVD and CD are available anywhere besides the PBS website.

I had no idea how difficult it was to preserve these wilderness areas and historical sites in the first place. What an eye-opener!

The concept that wilderness is a necessity was (is?) foreign to many people yet seems so obvious to me. More people need to get out of their concrete jungles and explore the outdoors! They have no clue what they're missing.

Bandelier National Monument in New Mexico  (5-09)

I wrote down a lot of noble phrases and concepts that grabbed me, like

  • going to the mountains is going home (oh, my, how expressive that is!)
  • our own human species needs outdoor sanctuaries, too, not just wildlife
  • in our over-civilized world, wildness is a necessity
  • the parks represent the wildness in us
  • they are "islands of hope" (better place, freedom, sense of history)
  • we put our highest ideals into them
  • they are icons of our Americanism (refuge, place to escape)
  • they provide us with a deep connection to the land (I can relate, coming from a farm)
  • by being part of something greater, we are connected to it and to each other
  • we risk losing our "self" if we lose the core roots of our identity  
  • we all own these special places -- they have been set aside for everyone's use

See why I loved this film so much? It's just so doggone inspiring! It's one more thing that makes me proud to be an American.


The historical parts of the film focus on the incredible effort it took to preserve areas with exceptional scenery, biological diversity, or historical significance.

Visionaries like John Muir, Ansel Adams, Teddy Roosevelt, and the Rockefeller family were often "swimming upstream" as they fought with private landowners, corporations that wanted to rape the land of its resources, and politicians to purchase and set aside these areas for posterity.

Badlands National Park in South Dakota  (11-01)

All of us owe a huge debt of gratitude to the many men and women who had the sense and tenacity so we and future generations can enjoy these remarkable places.

The purpose of the entire national park system is forever engraved in the stone arch at the Gardner, MT entrance to Yellowstone National Park, which was the first national park to be established:

"For the benefit and enjoyment of the people."

There is a paradox, of course (and probably more than this one): the parks have been set aside for the enjoyment of the people but those same people sometimes "love the parks to death." If you've been to Yellowstone or Yosemite or other popular national parks at the height of tourist season, you know what I'm talking about.

The National Park Service continually struggles with keeping the parks wild while allowing as many people into them as possible.

Scanned photos from our Grand Canyon NP run in March, 2001: 
we're having lunch across the river at Phantom Ranch, below.

It's a tenuous balancing act between use and preservation.


The park service also struggles with inadequate funding from Congress and user fees to properly maintain and preserve the parks. That was a problem even before the current economic recession (or depression, if you lost your job or house).

[Here's an interesting historical aside from Ken Burns' filmdespite the effects of the Great Depression in the 1930s and the Second World War during the 1940s, the national parks thrived during those troubled decades. They truly were islands of hope and a way for people to de-stress.]

[And here's an editorial comment from me about all the roads, trails, bridges, and structures that were built in the parks during the Great Depression by the Civilian Conservation Corps, structures still in use todayinstead of the extremely expensive and ineffective measures being taken now to create jobs and prop up our economy, maybe we need to emulate some of those public works programs like the CCC that were so effective seventy years ago . . . at least we've got something to show for them.]

Mt. Rushmore as framed by a nearby tunnel  (5-09)

As soon as we bought our house near Roanoke 5 years ago we started reading about volunteer efforts to plant visual barriers (trees, shrubs) and maintain the Blue Ridge Parkway in our area.

Riding gorgeous mountain ridges for 469 miles through North Carolina and Virginia, the Parkway is not only one of the the country's longest linear parks, it's also free and available to everyone to use. Its proximity within ten miles of our house was one reason we moved there.

We've noticed that it sometimes takes a while for the NPS staff to clear the roads of ice and snow and felled trees after storms (next photo). Repaving goes untended longer than adjacent city and county roads. But the skeletal park staff that remains, along with help from volunteers, does its best to keep the parkway attractive and serviceable for both visitors and local commuters.

The safest time for us to run on the nearby Blue Ridge Parkway
is when it's closed due to ice and snow!  (1-05)

I rue the day when it's necessary to close down or severely limit the operation of any of our national parks, monuments, or scenic trails.

The difficulty of keeping parks and wilderness areas open for enjoyment by runners, hikers, cyclists, equestrians, other sports enthusiasts, photographers, birders, leaf-peepers, and everyone else is a problem at every level of government. There has been a lot of controversy in several states, most notably California, about closing down state parks because tax revenues are drying up and cuts in services have to be made somewhere.

Parks are considered less essential than many other services so they are one of the first areas of the budget to see serious cuts.


As you'd expect from someone who believes in the protection of natural and historical resources for a  variety of reasons, it saddens me to see this happening all over the country. After all the time and effort that has been made to protect such spectacular and significant areas -- reportedly 84 million acres of them -- I hate to see public parks and wilderness areas go into disrepair or be lost forever.

Pretty redbud blossoms brighten up the Blue Ridge Pkwy. near Roanoke, VA  (4-07)

If you believe that these places are important to preserve, for whatever reasons are important to you personally, I have some suggestions:

  • Let your local representatives at all levels of government know how you feel about park closures and/or serious budget cuts. If there are other non-essential services that you'd rather see cut instead, let them know (the money has to come from somewhere, and cuts may be more palatable than higher taxes).
  • Volunteer to help maintain any local, state, or national parks near you -- pick up trash, clear branches off trails you're using, build or maintain trails (if park staff will allow that), whatever you have skills and time to do that can take some of the pressure off rangers and other paid personnel that are stretched 'way beyond their limits.

Day 59 from the 20005 Appalachian Trail Adventure Run

  • Visit local, state, and national parks regularly and support them with your entrance fees, annual passes, etc. Annual passes provide free access and some discounts (camping, transportation, etc.) to sites and lands that charge a fee and are managed by the National Park Service, US Forest Service, Fish & Wildlife Service, Bureau of Land Management (BLM), Bureau of Reclamation, and National Recreation sites. There are general passes for the youngsters under age 62 and three types of less expensive passes for visitors over 62 (only $10 for a lifetime!), people who have a permanent disability, and volunteers who have documented 500+ hours of service on public lands.

Springtime in the Smokies (Day 14 of our 2005 AT Adventure Run)

  • Direct some of your charitable donations to parks, wilderness areas, and the agencies or  organizations that maintain them. If you have a specific purpose in mind, let them know -- it could be anything from money for a new sign to the purchase of adjacent land.
  • When you make or update your will (you do have a valid will, don't you??), specify that a certain percentage of your estate will go to the upkeep of a particular natural place that you love or to support an entity like the Appalachian Trail Conservancy. That type of donation is a very appropriate legacy for a runner, hiker, or other nature-lover to leave to future generations.


Ken Burns' beautiful film about the national park system not only captivated me during the six nights it was shown, it has inspired me to set a new goalto walk, hike, cycle, or maybe even run (just a little bit) in every one of those 391 parks, scenic trails, historic sites, rivers, and seashores before I die.

If I am unable to move under my own power before I've seen 'em all, I would like to at least ride a horse or a motor vehicle over as much of the real estate as possible.

I don't want to hit three parks in one day. I'm talking about taking the time to explore each of them to the best of my ability, learn why each is special, take a bazillion photos, write about them on this website, and create a treasure trove of memories with Jim. That could mean one morning at a monument or ten weeks in Alaska.

That's sand, not snow, at White Sands National Monument in New Mexico (January '08)

I got this idea about 30 minutes into the first episode. The proverbial light bulb went off in my brain when I realized the possibilities . . .

Even before the disheartening news from my orthopedist three days later that I'm bone-on-bone in both knees, I already knew that my "Thirty-Year Run" was about to end and I needed to dream up some new adventures to take the place of the races, journey runs, and other ultra-distance events that I can no longer participate in except to volunteer or crew for Jim.

This film provided the first real incentive for me to dream some new dreams. What could be more perfect for someone who needs to be outdoors, appreciates great scenery and history, and loves to travel??

And I know Jim will enjoy it, too. I can't wait to begin the journey!

There is a large, free, downloadable pdf. "Owner's Guide" (above) to the national parks at the National Parks Foundation website. The NPF is the charitable partner of the National Park Service, helping to publicize the park system and raise funds to keep it operating.

The guide is divided into several regions in the continental USA and territories; there is a complete alphabetical directory of all 391 sites at the end. The guide includes enough interesting information and beautiful photos about the featured parks to get your creative juices flowing: where should we go next?? Check it out.


As I looked through the long list of national park units I counted the ones I've already visited. That was a surprise; I thought I'd been to more of them than I have -- only about 60 of them in my lifetime, some multiple times.

As you'd guess, the majority of the parks that I've visited are more wild than civilized -- more remote national parks and scenic trails than historical monuments in urban areas, for example.

It doesn't get much more wild or remote than the AT in northern New England!
Here we are on Mt. Moosilauke in New Hampshire on Day 116 of our 2005 AT Adventure Run.

But I've got a long way to go! Someday I will make a list of all the units on our website so I can mark off the ones I have already visited and record the dates of the new ones as we see them. It will be hard to just go to new ones, however, because I have favorites like Yellowstone and the Grand Canyon that I keep re-visiting. Whenever I'm close to them I want to go back yet another time.

That's OK. This is a lifelong project, not something I want to do in two or three years. That would be too fast to savor the experience.

There are other wild places like national forests and BLM lands that aren't even included in this long list of sites. Of course, I'd like to continue visiting as many of those as possible, too! I'm thinking of our favorite trails and camping areas in the San Juan National Forest in Colorado, for example . . .

Detour!!  Jim and Cody on the Colorado Trail near Rolling Pass on 7-1-09.

How about seeing as many of the state parks in Texas as we can? We'll be buying another annual state parks pass soon and haven't seen most of the dozens of nice parks there yet. (We haven't heard any scuttlebutt about any of them being closed.) Every state has beautiful parks it oversees.

Speaking of states, I've been in each of the Lower 48 but not Alaska and Hawaii. I'd love to spend all summer in Alaska one of these years. Jim's been to Hawaii several times before we met. I don't have any burning desire to travel there, but I'll have to if I want to see all the national park units. There are some in US territories, too: American Samoa, Guam, Puerto Rico, the Virgin Islands, and the Mariana Islands. Looks like we'll have to do some flying or floating if we want to go to these!

And I think Jim needs to visit all the Civil War sites he can . . . he's a Civil War buff:

Jim took photos at Gettysburg National Military Park in Pennsylvania
on Day 63 of our AT Adventure Run. I was out on the AT and haven't seen it yet.

The possibilities are endless, aren't they?

Everyone has special interests that lend themselves to wandering around the country like this, whether it's to follow various race circuits (any sport), run a marathon or ultra in all 50 states and DC (some folks have done that repeatedly), climb the high points in every state, climb all of Colorado's fifty-four  14ers, follow migrating birds, tour historic blue highways like Route 66, and so on.

If you have a passion or a whim, you can design a tour around it that fits your particular circumstances.

Jim and I both love to plan complicated training and travel schedules so goals like these are right up our alley. Anticipation is a big part of the fun, too -- we both love seeing new places and despite all the traveling we've each done, there is so much of this country we haven't discovered yet.

We'll probably visit Guadalupe Mountain NP in Texas on our winter trip; we've driven by it
several times but haven't gone in yet.  (photo copied from the National Parks Foundation guide)

Although I love to run and walk in beautiful settings for the sheer joy, sense of discovery, and fitness benefits, I'm still goal-oriented enough that something epic like this keeps me more motivated and happy.

There is nothing so satisfying to me as reaching a Big, Hairy Audacious Goal (one of David Horton's phrases) and sharing the experience with others. If you have any doubts about that, go to our home page and click on the 2005 AT Journal.

Exploring the outdoors IS therapeutic. I'm feeling much better just thinking about all the cool things I can still do outside!

Next entry: our more immediate plans

Happy trails,

"Runtrails & Company" - Sue Norwood, Jim O'Neil, and Cody the Ultra Lab

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